I say goodbye to g-d

I tried g-d. I tried so hard to hear you. I poured my heart out to you and all I heard in return was the void. Nothing. The silence is deafening.

I read your book to find answers. All I found were more questions. I read more to understand your word and how I could apply it. I only found more questions and no definite answers. The more I read, the less I found that I could trust your word. And if I can’t trust your world how can I hear from an otherwise silent g-d?

My childhood bible.

The only answer I have ever received from you is silence. So I’m moving on with my life. I’m really not going to continue to try to reach out to you.

β€œIt occurred to me that if there was really anything or anyone real or worthwhile remaining in my belief structures – any form of any god worth having faith in – certainly He/she/it/they would be secure enough to handle my lack of belief.”

Michael Gungor – This

Your followers claim to have answers, but I find them hollow. Empty memorized answers claiming to understand the unknown. But I find no truth there.

I’m done, and I’m moving forward with my life. I’m open to any answer, but for now I find that I’m okay with not knowing for sure. I know nothing about the meaning of life or existence, and I’m seeking contentment with that. I’m comfortable with the unknown, and I embrace the idea of not knowing anything for certain.

I tattooed my wrist as a way to symbolize this shift in my life.

To me my tattoo symbolizes my change. A delta (triangle) normally indicates change. The open end adds the meaning of being open. Combining the two equates the meaning of being open to change. The dot in the center reminds me not to judge others (Matthew 7:3). As I have spent most of my life judging others for who they are and how they live.

So for me, I plan to move on to new things; less judgement; and trying to be open to change and the the ideas of others. Moving away from fundamentalism and away from having answers to everything. I don’t know; I may never know. And that is okay.

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